It’s time to listen to myself.
I believe I made the right decision to retire early and find out who that person really is! I've always been a good employee and given my employers the best me I can be; and like everyone else, juggle home, family and job the best way I know how.
Having listened to others who had cancer radiation, I heard everything from “It’s a snap!” to the lady who had to have her husband take her every treatment. Honestly, it’s someplace in between that. Radiation affects the human body, and as we are all different individuals, we will all have a different story.
During treatment, I was able to work and do pretty much everything else. Hubby helped and we did fine. When the side effects caught up with me, during the sixth of seven weeks, everything was different. I had no energy and could barely function.
My immune system was compromised and during the first and fourth months after treatment, I contracted serious upper respiratory infections. Think of it this way, one month out of three I was out of commission. This is not acceptable.
Once I decided to retire and started heading toward that end, I got sick again. During this time, I talked to other real women who spoke of a 6-18 month recovery period. These were not working women and at the time of treatment, they might not have been sixty years old.
Why aren't professionals real with you?
I thought that I would start back up at the fitness club as soon as I retired. NOT. The first two weeks were pretty much at home, getting well. The third week I started doing things, but I was only up to one thing a day. If I went to the gym, that was pretty much it. Also, I did have some things to do that week that I had been putting off, so exercise was on the back burner.
The fourth week I went to a class and was so happy that only four people were there that morning; because even with “holding back,” I threw up into the waste basket after class. Marvelous. The next day I decided to just start on the treadmill and bicycle because my muscles were sore from the previous day. I have not regularly exercised in the morning and I want to, but I may have to do some changing of the times that I take medicines.
I am going to listen to my own voice. I am NOT ready for “prime time.” (boot camp in the evening) I going to start this slowly and build, because it’s not really the same as it was the first time. I was just dealing with soreness and stamina then. Now, there is so much more. Medications. Fatigue.
I am grateful for the staff at the fitness club that doesn't push me—right now I don’t need pushed. I just need to go, regularly.
And see where it takes me.